Following up on my last post concerning The Mandala Project, here is the first entry…
I apologize for the poor webcam quality, that is all I have at the moment.
The first sketch begins to take on a “no smoking” sign though it is rather affirmation for the smoker that I am. Beneath the overlapping sign is a pile of ashes and thus we already have a meaning full outline of the symbol of a snow angel or keyhole.
Within the slash of the no smoking sign is the word “Declension” written upside down, mirrored, diagonally from upper right to lower left. This forms the center of the mandala which is now comprised of two semicircles as the slash divides them. One sky is present within both semicircles. In the bottom right semicircle there is an exclamation mark, a symbol which has taken on significant meaning to me. This semicircle contains the cloud of the one sky. The upper left semicircle contains more clouds and diagonal lines, parallel to the slash, in the bottom corner. Towards the upper area of this section is an opened mouth smiling face akin to an emoji. The emoji is also slanted towards the slash of of “DECLENSION” but not at a parallel angle. The eyes are not exaggerated to the cartoon effect of full circles like those in an emoji, much more like normal eyes instead though inside are all white with no pupils. There is face paint, most noticeably around the eyes, resembling corpse paint as used by black metal artists. However, the design derives more significantly from the monstrous being in the anime Ergo Proxy. The design on the face of that being can be reproduced into corpse pain, though with a smile that can also resemble “Juggalo” or wicked clown paint. The upper right of the faces branches off into something like ribbons, also derived from this being. In writing this, I am struck with the coincidence that there is a song by Ugly Casanova called “Smoke Like Ribbons.” The face was thought of as burning off those ribbons. At the top of the slash, just outside the mandala, there is a fire. The fire takes on the burning end of a cigarette, unintentionally, and likewise the cigarette does go into “declension” as it is burned. There is something dripping or melting underneath the fire where there is also a miniature no smoking sign. The miniature symbol fractalizes the mandala. Two designs proceed from both sides of the miniature symbol forming a design in the frame of the circle itself. The leftward design, around the upper semicircle is something like ll 0 ll 0 ll 0 ll 0 ll, and ends with an exclamation mark ! before the last letter of DECLENSION. The pattern actually symbolizes an online IGN and username which I’ve been fond of having for years — “afeuicoku” (a-F-e-U-i-C-o-K-u.) The letters in between each ordered vowel spell the “F word.” Now back to the miniature no smoking symbol, to the right proceeds another design of geometric shapes. They countdown, the first shape being a symbol of eight and then so on down to one and then are followed by two crossed question marks. However, I completely forgot the symbol for six, which would have been a unicursal hexagram. The question marks are reminiscent of those little things I’ve seen Pharaohs with and on their sarcophagi. This Pharaoh symbol is directly in the bottom middle of the circle. It may be coincidental that the countdown consists of eight characters, which pertain to the username I use newly — azefeari (eight characters.) Moving outside the circle, on the top and slightly off center to the left we have the binary composition with a strike-through —
101010101 representing afeuicoku, and that I no longer use it. Lightning is striking from the upper left. Along the right is an eye with a little mandala as the pupil, underneath the eye is written, with each word placed above the next, “what do you know?” That is a lyric from the A Perfect Circle song “The Mission.” In the upper right there is a little snake, it symbolizes Kundalini though only the coiled aspect of Kundalini not as a serpentine energy. It loops around the end of its tail, the loop forming a reptilian eye slit within, and the snake curves towards the upper right of the page with his forked tongue towards it. It is interesting that the tongue is split in two much like the Mandala is divided “right in two.” That is the name of a Tool song, the band which I believe initially sparked my interest in Jung. To finish the mandala, at the bottom beneath the pile of ashes, is the word Ergo (therefore), which I had to ponder on before deciding what word to write, I am satisfied with this decision.
I took on this drawing with Zen or a lack of contrivance. Much of the meaning did not take place in my mind until after the drawing was finished and reflected upon. The whole “no smoking” concept and all was seemingly unintentional, which brings light to the articulations of the unconscious or subconscious process, purely “synchronistic.”
Edit: I now realize it was significant that the six symbol was left out. I recently drew a “no” symbol around a hexagram. Not an antisemitism advocate, but I have a bit of a history of defiance of Israel, also that the hexagram is used by sheriffs as a deputy star..!
Also just realized the “no” symbol here is backwards, and I tried not to do that…